Monday After the great news on Saturday, I’m still completely confused over what I should do. I went to talk with mum about it, but she wasn’t a big help – all she told me was that I didn’t have to go if I didn’t want to. I told Jason as well… he was really excited that he might see me on Match of the Day! Dad really wants me to go, considering it’s a big opportunity and all, but I have no idea what I should do. I’d really miss Louise if I moved somewhere like London or something.
Tuesday Great news about Louise! I went to see her in the hospital today, and she said that she’d be out in a few days! I told her about that mystery invitation and she was really enthusiastic, she said that I should definitely go. I thought for a moment about telling her about the Premier League offer, but I thought it’d be best not to…I wouldn’t want to upset her by going away, or leaving her with the prospect of it. I went straight to the beach after that – I would’ve taken Lulu, but she was feeding the puppies, so I went for a long run on my own. It’s really lonely without Lulu though, I’m so used to taking her for walks and everything. I spotted Ed while I was on the beach – he looked kind of depressed, fiddling with a load of stones, but I just ran past him at first (didn’t want to disturb him and all). Then my conscience got the better of me: I decided that I should turn back and sit with him. We talked for a while…turns out the only thing we’ve got in common is our love of dogs – oh, and the invitation…it turns out that he got one as well. I told him about the puppies, too, and took him back to my place to see them. We fussed over them for a while, and Ed looked like he loved them. I decided to take Ed over to see Jason and mum. Being posh, I didn’t know how he’d take the place they live in, but he was great! He asked if I was going to take Jason to the party - good point - I hadn’t thought about taking him before, but still…I think I’ll take him. Jason seems really excited about going and meeting everyone.
Saturday I’ve been thinking over and over about this Premiership thing, and I still have no idea what I should do about it. It’s a once in a lifetime opportunity, but I don’t know if it’d feel right leaving. I thought about going to tell Louise about it, but completely chickened out at the last minute. What a wimp, I know, but I still can’t bring myself to upset her like that…leaving so soon after meeting her. I mean - a matter of years, sure, but this is completely different. Everyone was fine with me at the bus stop, even though I had Jason with me – I feel like a right pig for being so shallow and not telling anyone about him…to be honest, I don’t know why I didn’t introduce him to everyone sooner!
A minibus drew up. It was a registered taxi firm, but we were still suspicious, so I asked the driver for his I.D., which looked OK. And he had a list of all our names. Everyone hesitated about getting in, so I took the guy aside and asked him who booked it – he said it was someone called Goodwin. That’s Louise’s name! So I told everyone it was fine. The driver looked really confused – I don’t think he had any more of an idea what was going on than we did! We ended up in the middle of this street, and the driver told us to knock on the door with the 28 on it. And what a surprise when the door opened…it was Tie Man! At last there was a little bit of sense in the whole idea…It turned out that he’s Louise’s brother, and that he was holding a party for us to thank us all for visiting Louise.
He led us to the food and drink and then Louise walked in! It was amazing to see her walking! I started talking with Ed about dogs again – he mentioned how much he loved seeing them, and so…guess who offered him one? Yeah...he accepted gratefully…so hopefully I’ll be able to prise one away from Lulu! Tie Man quietened us all down after a while – Louise wanted to make a speech, to thank us all. She explained how she had walked in front of the van on purpose because she was depressed about moving to Kingsmouth with Simon (it turns out that’s Tie Man’s real name). She said that she’d thought she wouldn’t have any friends, but now she feels like she has made some – and she realised that she was stupid for doing it. She won’t do it again, and she just wants to get on with life. God, I was amazed…I couldn’t believe that Louise tried to kill herself!
I finally plucked up the courage to say something that I’d been meaning to for a while…and it wasn’t about the Premiership. I finally told Louise that I loved her…I didn’t even think about what Nicky or anyone would say! I finally came around to telling her about the Premiership too. She said that I should go for it if I wanted to, but I could see the tears starting to form in her eyes. I told her the truth – that I’d much rather be there with her than take up the offer – but she looked at me, the tears really showing, now, and told me, “I can’t make up your mind. You decide.” I have no idea what to do. I thought that telling her might help in my decision, but seeing her like that… I just don’t know what I should do, or what the future holds for me…
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