Tuesday
I’m getting ready for play rehearsal. The mystery invitation is on my bed; my brother must have put it there. I still don’t know who it’s from, but I’ll figure that out later. The main reason I’m writing is that I have something great to tell you. Dad helped me learn my lines! I could tell he didn’t understand them, but it was so nice to have him help me. I don’t really spend much time with him, and this made me see him differently. It was fun. We had a laugh as he pulled faces and did voices for the different characters. I couldn’t speak for laughing!
I just got home from rehearsal… those horrible girls (the ones playing Gwendolen and Cecily) - they destroyed it! I was just about to leave and I realized they had damaged my costume. I say damaged - it’s ruined. I have no idea what to do. I can’t fix it. Tomorrow I have to go see Edward’s concert - I said I’d go with Rachel and I don’t want to let her down. But the play is in two days! I thought after Rachel spoke to them, they’d leave me alone. But now how will I perform with no dress?
Wednesday
I went to see Edwards’s concert, trying to forget about the costume. I would try and mend it later, if I had to stay up all night.
When I got home mum was flittering about - then she showed me. There were strands of cotton all over the floor, and there on the chair was my costume. It looked amazing - better than it did before, plus she had bought me a huge hat and decorated it with flowers and feathers from Petalz. I wanted to cry. I turned to mum and hugged her, I am so pleased, relieved, ecstatic. The play is tomorrow, and I’m not even nervous now!
Thursday
Everyone came - Alejandro, my mother, father, even Ed and Rachel. It was overwhelming, the performance went brilliantly and I cried at the finale. I know it sounds bad, but it was just so incredible - it’s as though everything has finally worked out. Mum said Pilar would be proud, and I felt a rush of emotion again, tears flowing down my face. Strangely, just before we left, Jack Sullivan (in my English class) came and spoke to me. He complimented me on my performance, although I felt a bit embarrassed, having just finished crying.
Saturday
I went to the bus stop just to see what was happening. I decided to walk past, in case it was a set-up, but everyone was there. Harley even brought his brother, who was really sweet. A minibus arrived but I didn’t recognise the driver. Everyone was a bit reluctant to go, but Harley said it was okay. We were driven into town and dropped off at a house. It all seemed a little unreal - none of us had a clue what was happening. Harley knocked on the door, and Tie Man opened it! We were all in awe! He explained his name is Simon and he is Louise’s brother. He said he had seen everyone visiting Louise in hospital and he wanted to thank us for being kind to her. He said we would get a lift back in the minibus at 10:30, after that he left us in the room. Then I noticed the food and drinks and the music started and I realized it was a party!
I walked over to chat to Edward, and he gave me Rachel’s email address, as I hadn’t got it when we were at the bowling alley. I looked at the piece of paper, and left Edward, saying I needed the loo, Rachel is New Moon! I recognised the address as soon as I saw it, but I couldn’t bear Edward seeing how I felt. What a liar she is! And I had told New Moon all my secret thoughts. Rachel must have been laughing at me all the time. I ran through into what I had hoped was an empty room. I ended up in a kitchen where Tie Man was sitting at the table drinking tea.
We started talking and I just blurted everything, ending in tears about Pilar. Tie Man was really supportive. He said he understood about loss, after what happened to Louise. He gave me some advice too. He said I was a good kid and I should hang on to the good things in life, and then he said I should hang on to Rachel, as she wants to be my friend. I guess when I thought about it, I agreed - I didn’t want to lose Rachel. In the end Tie Man had me smiling, and told me, as he got up to rinse his cup, to go have fun and to stay out of trouble. I smiled uncomfortably, remembering the police station incident!
I went and spoke to Rachel and we sorted things out. I must admit I was a little disappointed when she said that she was going out with Edward, but then I remembered Jack Sullivan and the jealousy faded! I was just about to tell Rachel about him when Louise stood up and made a speech. I admired her honesty - she said she stepped into the road, because she was lonely and depressed. But that she knew it was a stupid thing to do and she was really happy now that she has some great friends. Ditto, I thought, remembering what life was like for me when Louise got hit. Now I see how things are so much better. Except there was one more thing I needed to do.
On the way home I got dropped off at the church, and lit a candle for Pilar. I stared into the flame and sent a prayer to Pilar, explaining everything is ok.
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